Next in Line for the Crown

So you know how the other day I could NOT think of that song about cutting? Well I finnally searched the Big Black Book of Songs, and I found it. I was titled "This Is Why" and the lyrics go like this

I wasted all my shooting stars 

and thought that we could go real far

but I guess not

I told my friends about you and

Could see myself holding  your hand

Because your hot

I tend to over react but
This time you didn't make me cut

It starts out as a little sting
And then a red line appears
Now I can't feel any thing
Smilin' though my tears
This time is the last time
that i need you here
The sooner you tell the truth
The easier it is to bear
I wonder if she looks like me
and what color is her hair?

I tend to overeact but
this is why i cut
It starts out as a little sting
and then a red line appears
Now i can't feel anything
Smilin' through my tears
This time it is no crime
That i need you here

Its one of my shorter songs, and i was super fusterated when i wrote it, but i came out pretty nice.
So I'm in the mood to tell you june bugs about my whole thing with MG

So it starts out a while ago in a little place called rigby.

It had been about a Month since my mom gave birth to my little brother hutch, who was stillborn.

I had been going to school in Idaho Falls even though we had moved to rigby, but we decided it was just too much to commute down there every morning, so i started going to Rigby Jr. High. 

I was at Cindy's getting my hair done, and i asked her about her son. She said he wasn't going to the prom that was happening that night because his date had to go to a funeral in Utah. So i told her that i would go with him. Keep in mind that i was 15 at the time and MG was 18 going on 19 and i was a freshman while he was a senior. So she calls my mom to make sure its okay, and my mom says its fine. So she tries to get ahold of MG who is at his sister's house moving wood. She calls and calls, but he has his phone off. So she sends me home and says "if you dont hear from me or him by 3 then dont worry about it." so i go home, and talk to my mom, and she and booboo and i lay down to take a nap. At 2:53, i get a phone call. When i answer, there is the smoothest, handsomest voice i have ever heard on the other line, saying he will pick me up at 5 to go to iggy's in idaho falls, and then we will go to the dance. So i get dressed and do my makeup, and at 5:15 there is a knock on the door. Its him. and he looks amazing and he has a corsage in his hand. So my mom takes a ton of pictures and then we leave. The whole night is amazing. And at the end of it, we pull up to my house in his white dodge. He gets out of the truck and comes and opens my door. So i get out and give him a hug, and hope that he will give my a goodnight kiss or even just his phone number, but he doesn't. He just hugs me for a while, then lets go and gets back into his truck and leaves. So 3 weeks go by. And I don't hear anything from him. Its the last day of school and me and all my friends decide to walk home. So I am walking along and we are all dying of thrist. So i ask them if they want to stop by cindy's house and get a drink. When I do, she gives me our dance pictures. I thank her and go to leave, and ask im walking away, she comes running after me. MG had just called and was asking her for my number. And i give it to her. Then when we are about a mile away, I call her and ask if I can have his number. She says yes, and gives it to me. and I start texting him. And for the next 2 months we text every day and most of the night. Then we decide its time for us to hang out. My mom says she will pay us $20 if we clear all of the weeds out of her yard. So we agree to it, and i go to get my hair done that morning and mike brings me back home and we pull weeds for a while. Then we go inside to bake cookies, and the whole time we are baking cookies he is standing next to me, and talking to me, and eating the dough and being all cute. 

Then the phone rings. And its my ex DIO and he askes what im doing and i tell him to come help us finish pulling the weeds. so he comes over, and MG starts acting all weird. And he leaves. DIO stays for a while, and while he is still there, I'm texting MG.
MG and his dad were restoring his dad's old camaro, the one that his dad purposed to his mom in. And MG is telling me about it. And I ask him if he is going to purpose to the girl he marries in it. And he says yes. And I ask him if he already knows who it is. And he says he has a pretty good idea. I ask him, thinking he will say me, who she is. And he says his girlfriend. Im completely excited at this point, and I ask him what her name is, because i was completely under the impression that he was talking about me. And he says her name is ashlee and she lives in Idaho Falls. And they have been dating for 3 months, and she was the gir he had origionally asked to prom.

I WAS DEVASTATED!!!!
So I get back together with DIO and a bunch of dumb crap happens there. 

And now every once in a while I test MG.}
But he never replies.

So that day, when he told me that he was with someone else, i wrote the song This Is Why.
And the part "I wonder if she looks like me, and what color is her hair?" that is refering to Ashlee. 

So there is the story of how MG broke my heart, and how I wasted my summer between 9th and tenth grade. :)

So anyway, I'm in the mood to write a song.

How about a song about being next in line for a broken heart, but we can call the broken heart a crown. :))

Until we meet again, june bugs, may the music you listen to be upbeat!

My Life, As I knew It

Goodmorning. And welcome to the blogspot of penstemon koda. Yeah, thats right, I changed my name for theatrical purposes, and to everyone who knows me by other titles, refer to me as what you want. :)

So I'm starting this blog as a way to document my daily life and all the fun stuff that goes with it! 

Lets jump right in. 

So I didn't have work today. Which should be good right?
WRONG!

I have spent my whole day in sweatpants and an element tee shirt that i have had since seventh grade. I was thinking of taking my grandpa to dinner later at applebees, but I'm not sure if either of us is up to it. He's in the kitchen now, asking me what I am typing about. hmm what to say what to say. Nothing to quircky to say. I'll just ignore him...
So he told me that he almost has the sound studio completely set up and we should be able to get recording by next sunday! YAY!!! I'm kinda wanting to write a new song, but the only tunes i can get into my head feel all jazzy and weird. DANG YOU YACOB AND YOUR SKA AND ENGLISH MUSIC!!!! 

So I'm thinking and I might record some new videos for youtube. I have my camera and everything, so why not?

But i would have to get all dressed up and pretty first. 

Hey, if you haven't seen my first one go check it out. 

Dear Old Boys

yeah, thats the name of it. Dear Old Boys. I wrote it for AJP because we were both so mad at men. It was directed at MG and JR. (mike and jared). 

Hey i just remebered another song i wrote, but i dont think i wrote it in the Big Black Book Of Songs. It was called... hmm i just dont remember. I wrote it around that same time though. It was about cutting. Hmmm... I dont know! Wow that is going to bother me for forever!

Well I'm off to record some videos. Have a good day!